busy weekend

its friday and we're getting ready for jumaah prayer in santa clara- this weekend promises to be busy, art tommorrow in emeryville with the meetup group, and babysitting for baby sumaya on sunday while sara is tabling at the farmer's market, a great film to watch (al otro lado), and decisions to be made whether or not i am to continue classes this month.... more later.

on the privilege of regular posting

after ten days, i finally am connected once again to regular internet access, a fluke, because this link showed up randomly just as quickly as the old one had disappeared. so, after ten days, my first post. hmmmm. a list of things that i did, accomplished, or thought about doing (despite my astrological sign, one of my weaknesses is incessant procrastination, usually due to my obsessive need to be perfect, achieve perfection, have perfect surroundings, before i start a project)
ahem.
went w/mimi to sacramento to see "les miserables" great singing but homely cast...more later.
took mimi to outlet malls -vacaville, where it was so hot you could watch your spit evaporated on the sidewalk (if you had an inclination to spit in the first place)
arranged storage mtwth, donations of old clothes-in a desperate, obsessive effort and mood, that has now subsided, to organize the infernal pit that we call a storage space, which was littered with my beloved's old electronic appliances, stereo equipment, sports stuff, all of which he absolutely can't live without, but hasn't seen or done anything with in years. more later.
saturday-the first annual chicken festival in san juan bautista, and papa's birthday at dona esthers-very nice time, with my tio y tias, and a nifty, cool, funky chicana art store just a few steps away. mentally making plans to go see "zootsuit" w/ tia connie and mimi, need to check the date. uncle junju asking after his illustrations that i promised him. eek!
sunday/monday- recuperate from the heat and a horrible summer cold that i seem to have attracted.

as i sit here, the birds are having an impromptu festival of their own in the huge squirrel proof feeder that we put up outside, which i filled yesterday with blk sunflower seeds, most entertaining. i debate on getting up and/or moving to get more hot tea, both of which make my head hurt. think i will wait a bit longer.

big trouble in lil fremont

i have no internet connection- those who previously had unsecured wifi have secured it after 6 months and i have to leave the house to go online. major inconvenience. arggghhh! why after so long would you lock up the system? having no capacity or inclination for these things makes it very difficult to find a solution. i hate the idea of having to pay to have someone come out and fix the way my laptop and plug in system work, but it seems i have no choice- the thought of me schlepping around a printer to print out articles or other pertinent information seems idiotic- oh well. not that anyone is reading this, but if anyone does- they might be provided a small chuckle at the thought of someone lugging around printer and computer to an internet cafe. hmmmm.
more later.

on the beauty of fog

so, yesterday as i was melting away in the city nestled against the hills, when i was struck with a moment of clarity and near genius: after asr-why not take a small trip to sf, get a chai, and sit by the beach off of hwy 1? and that is what i did. i took mehar with me, she had told me earlier that she usually needed to go to the ocean in order to cleanse energies and spirits, so i brought her along. the ocean was light grey, with only the occasional surfer, but as the east bay broiled away in near dante-esque temperatures, the sf sky was dripping, literally, with the most lovely layers of fog. thick, white, divine fog- cooling our heads, bodies, and kissing our faces with its beautiful moisture. we only stayed an hour or so, and left at what would have been (if it could have been visible) the sunset.

bellisima.

feel it hot!hot!hot!

omg! it is 11:ooam pst and already 80something degrees with no hint of breeze. when you look over to the peninsula side(west) you can see a smattering of clouds, but here, on the east side of the bay-not a one in the sky. looks like today is a perfect day to stay indoors until the sun goes down at least. obligatory vampire like habits being forced upon me once again in summer. i will let you know what went on today later on tonight.
hasta muy prontito.

independence day?

What do you claim independence from?
meaningless consumer-driven holidays?
even more meaningless techno gadgets to fill your days with endless electronically delivered drivel?
how about independence from stuff for one whole day?
could you do it?

ca y est!

je sais pas comment ca va marcher si j'ai pas de marques diacritiques. bon! on imagine que j'ai les utilises!

cinera -artista - mujer

well, tonite is the first nite of my blog....like who is really gonna read this mierda? quien? just reviewing my emails, going over whether i should try to go to ohc in san diego, is it like, all xtinized, or is it like very generic, spiritual, higher power kinda stuff? also kicking around options to go to el paso with sarah to midwifery school in autumn... so random, do i really want a job? really? or do i really just want to kick around and create art and try to give it a go. hmmm. thoughts for pondering. tommorrow gonna watch "tiger and snow" by roberto benigni (is that how you spell it? ap-o-log-ia, as he says in "love actually") stream of consciousness type of writing. writing for the sake of writing. proof of existence.
good nite.